a few questions for myself...maybe you can answer them for me

-why do i wear my heart on my sleeve?
-why can't i save myself from falling so quickly?
-how is it possible to know someone for so long and never recognize how well they fit into your mold of what you want in someone else?
-how do you restrain from telling someone who is so wonderful how much you care about them so quickly? why is it so hard for me to swallow the lump in my throat that makes me want to say those three blasted words that have always ended up making me feel pain?
-how do i deal with the questions from my mom that are the same over and over again without snapping or getting nasty?
-why is it that when you are with said person who you just want to hold all the time the time you are with them flies by and when it comes time to say goodbye the time just keeps pushing itself later and later and makes it harder to get up?
-why is said person so understanding of your hopes and wishes and yet it scares the hell out of you?
-why does caring have to come so hard to me?
-why can't i get the feeling of being burnt out of my head? and why can't i think that trust is ok to do when someone is so obviously trust worthy? why can't i take the brick wall down that i keep up?
-why is the feeling of laying alone so bad?
-why is the feeling of laying with someone who tells you you're beautiful so satisfying?
-why can't i lay with said person right now?

things were so good this weekend. le sigh.