why?

Why do i let everything and everyone get to me? I was doing so good today.

I just want Sharkey to be honest about thing, be respectful. I've decided I am officially upset about Friday. And I'm not gonna let him get away with it either, I'm not gonna be a bitch about it either though, I'm gonna just tell him, "look, I'm not gonna deal with that stuff. you need to keep in mind if we have plans, i don't want to be stood up, because its doing nothing but making me feel like crap"

He knows what I've been through. He's promised me that he will never do any of that crap to hurt me, and now I'm sitting here being upset about it with a pain in my stomach and nothing but hope that maybe he'll call. However, Stephen said he'd never pull that crap on me and look at how that went, I know I've yet to explain the whole thing there...but in due time. I just don't have the energy to type it all out.

I'm gonna go over to starbucks until Marion gets home so I can go over and have dinner. My plan is to read and drink coffee and not be sad about anything.

I just wish I could meet someone who is honest.