2008 SO FAR

We're gonna work backwards tonight...so I can try to remember things accurately.

Sunday January 6, 2008
- So far, no sign to the end of the strike. I miss Pam and Jim. LET'S GO PEOPLE!
- Bored and annoyed at everything today
- ate really good pancakes at april's, and naturally felt like a fat ass after eating them.
- worked out for a lil while, not close to long enough
- missed 2 episodes of Hannah Montana. My life is sad that this annoys me.
- Posted new pictures on Facebook from last week.
- took a shower
- sat in the car to and from JFK so we know where to go at the end of the week.
-Ate dinner with the fam.
- Found Empire Records on Fuse, and realized that I don't love that movie anymore.
- Called Stephen in hopes of him having nothing to do so I could go bother him and spend time with him, driving and drinking coffee. No luck.

Saturday, January 5, 2008
- woke up late. ugh.
- went to the mall with Louis.
- got bitched at for wanting to go into stores.
- tried things on and hate my body SOOOOOOO much for being the way it is.
- had frozen yogurt for lunch ,which made me feel good about myself. made the decision that on Monday, breakfast will be a protein bar, lunch yogurt, and dinner salad. and i have decided I'm gonna buy a diet pill of some kind and pray it doesn't kill me or put me in the hospital, hid it from everyone and just say alot of diet and exercise is how I did it.
- got home, folded laundry, packed, went to Jeanette's, and then to April's.
- saw Juno. possibly one of the best movies of the year...I know that's a lofty comment less than a week into the new year, but it may be the movie of the year. looking forward to that one coming out on dvd.
- drank 4 wine coolers, got a headache, fell asleep first at the sleepover.

Friday, January 4, 2008
- TIRED!
- first day of Steve not being at work. kinda sad. it'll be sadder on Monday. I know it. Chris didn't do buses with me.
- Christine bought me lunch ,and then I beat her up because she's mean to Stephen.
- Stephen came over, ate with my parents and then went to go buy DVDs. He's so willing to share EVERYTHING with me, including his christmas giftcards. I'm really lucky.
- watched Bubba Ho Tep. actually, a decent movie. Stephen was surprisingly affected by it.
- made out and one thing led to another. it was fantastic. i missed that feeling so badly. I just wish that it wasn't so hush hush.
- Stephen asked if it was "ok" that he go home. silly question. of course its "ok" but of course i want him to stay. i hate sleeping without him. february can't come soon enough.

Thursday, January 3, 2008
- don't want to be back at work.
- apparently now I have to get everything on my two prep periods for Steve's party.
- steve was excited, him and pat were impressed with my baby holding skills.
- wore my high black boots today, god those thigns hurt at a certain point.
- wish i wasn't so conflicted sometimes. it's not a feeling that's always there, just sometimes.
- taught Sophie, she's really becoming a teen ager.
- coffee with Dave, got home at 11. WAY too late.

Wednesday, January 2, 2008
- back to work. SO don't want to be here.
- canceled 4th grade lessons...got bitched at by 3 parents...got bitched at by 5 kids.
- could not wait to get home.
- went home, and ate, and went to bed. pretty much.

tuesday, January 1, 2008
- 1:30, finally fell asleep after bringing Stephen home, and getting him somewhat comfortable.
- 2:00 woke up to Stephen moaning and curled over in pain, attempted to throw up again and I told him we had to go to the hospital.
- 3:00 we get to the hospital and stephen's admitted. Once I was able to go in, I did my best not to lose it, but it hurt so badly to see him with a tube in his arm, pale as anything and laying in a hospital bed. This isn't supposed to be how we spend our first new years, or our first night together in over a month, or any night. The pain I feel is so bad, and I'm so scared that it's part my fault, part something worse than we think.
- slept on and off. there was a stab wound victim brought in. No results, more St. peter's people, no coffee, Christine got more and more obnoxious as time went by.
- FINALLY! I fell asleep, and I felt Christine jump up, Stephen had been released, we could go home. it was about 9. I went home, slept til 3:30 and then showered, drove past Chris' and then over to stephen's. I sat with him for a lil while, we watched tv, spongebob tv-movie was on. He was feeling better, but still sore from all the dry heaving and vomitting.

So that's about it. Just got back from seeing the BUcket List. Great movie. I'll expand on that at another time. I need to go to bed, because before I know it the alarm will be going off and I'll be back at work. didn't do enough this weekend, but i spent time with the people i was supposed to.

i miss my boyfriend in my bed so badly. sigh.....